Yesterday I chopped off my hair! I’ve wanted a pixie, or any short hair cut, for as long as I can remember. I’ve really wanted one since I entered into motherhood. Before quarantine, I had decided that I was finally going to take the plunge and do it. I got over my fear of looking like a teenage boy, and gave up caring what anyone would possibly think about it. And then the salons closed so I didn’t get it done. But I’ve been pinteresting and instagram-following pixie pages and hashtags for the last three months and further solidified my decision.

So I made an appointment for the 18th, which is just three days before my birthday. I have donated my hair once before when I cut off 10 inches before I had a major surgery when I was 15. I’ve never had it this short though. I don’t think I’ve ever had it above my shoulders. With my birthday coming up, I decided that I wanted to donate my hair again, especially given that I would be cutting off such a large length of hair, I know that long hair donations are prized possessions. I ended up chopping 13 inches this time. It is currently drying in a braid so that I can mail it to Children With Hair Loss which is a non-profit that accepts any type of hair, even color-treated and graying, and accepts shorter donations as well. I plan to send in a monetary donation to help partially sponsor the wig that will be made from my hair too.

It feels so liberating to have a pixie. I LOVE it! My hair seems so much thicker this short too, which was a worry of mine. I thought that since my ponytail wasn’t as thick as it used to be, that it would be too thin to have it this short, but it turned out to be quite the opposite. I’m actually already wanting to take it even shorter in the back!

It’s taking some getting used to. I have a slight sense of shock every time I see myself. Not in a bad way, I love the cut, but I look so different now with it this way that it catches me off guard. I still need to play with it and find my style. I’ve been collecting products to style it with during the whole quarantine too, so I’ve got lots of things to try. My hair is naturally wavy, but since it was so long, the waves were very loose from the weight. Now its pretty curly on top when its wet, so I’m excited to wear it that way too. I always felt like I had no idea what to do with my long hair. The only thing I did with it was straighten it or put it up. I feel like I can actually style my hair now with this pixie. I’m so excited to go on this journey of exploration and just realizing the self confidence is amazing and I’m not even 24 hours in.

I’m so happy that I finally took the plunge and tossed all my caution and fear to the wind. Seriously, if you have something that you think may be drastic for you to change, just DO it!