Waiting is overrated

I have been dying to test since ovulation! I am having a hard time concentrating on anything else. I vowed that I would wait until AF is supposed to come but I am having a really hard time! I just really want to know. I also wanted to not get my hopes up, just in case, but I can’t help it! I am already excited and I still have daydreams about our baby. I have had a couple odd symptoms but nothing that couldn’t be chalked up to something else. Number one, I have been really bloated the past few days. Not like mild bloating. I’m talking bloated enough that a co-worker (that I don’t see on a regular basis) asked about it. She sounded suspicious that I was pregnant. So I was a little appalled and at the same time a little excited. It was awkward having to tell her that I am not pregnant (that I know of). And number two…literally. I have been so constipated lately. Warning: TMI I have discovered what seems like hemorrhoids along with the constipation. I went two days without going. When I finally did go, it hurt so bad! I bled a little bit right after too from the irritation. Gross, I know. I am usually pretty regular and go 1-2 times a day. I have tried foods to help reverse the constipation but it didn’t help, so I have resorted to laxatives. They are the same ones my Dr prescribed during my last pregnancy so I know they are safe if I am preggo. I have also been having more sleepless nights. I don’t know why. After the miscarriage, I got back into a regular sleeping pattern and slept pretty well. Now all of a sudden, the tossing and turning has come back. I have yet to have that crampy feeling like I had last time with implantation and I still have four days to go before AF. I really hope that I am pregnant again. I am so ready to be. I am trying so hard not to test but those strips in the bathroom cabinet are soooo enticing! Sometimes I think to myself, “What if I just take one, just to see,” but then I snap back to reality and tell myself nonononono! I need something to take my mind off of it but I have yet to find anything and trust me, I have lots of stuff to think about (what mom doesn’t?). I will definately keep you posted on what is to come! hopefully I will have some good news this weekend!!

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